we take the shots
that are handed to us
kiss other girls act out fetishes
for the boys who watch only
when I’m drunk that way
it isn’t real
the butterflies just nausea
throw up in the bathroom and hold the hair
of the girl in the stall next to me
tell her your outfit is so cute wipe vomit
from the corners of our mouths
where did you get your shoes
you’re so gorgeous
no you’re so gorgeous
my boyfriend says that’s hot and later
we watch lesbian porn and he points
to the blonde and says that’s you
I don’t see myself
in her but I don’t see myself
in me either